Thursday, April 19, 2007

Maybe I will be a nun....

Sayings of Mother Teresa

The dying, the cripple, the mental,
the unwanted, the unloved
they are Jesus in disguise.

Yesterday is gone.
Tomorrow has not yet come.
We have only today.
Let us begin.

Little things are indeed little,
but to be faithful in little things is a
great thing.

It is not how much we do,
but how much love we put in the doing.
It is not how much we give,
but how much love we put in the giving.

Nakedness is not only for a piece of clothing;
nakedness is lack of human dignity,
and also that beautiful virtue of purity,
and lack of that respect for each other.

There is a terrible hunger for love.
We all experience that in our lives - the pain, the loneliness.
We must have the courage to recognize it.
The poor you may have right in your own family.
Find them.
Love them.

Before you speak,
it is necessary for you to listen,
for God speaks in the silence of the heart.

Speak tenderly to them.
Let there be kindness in your face,
in your eyes, in your smile,
in the warmth of your greeting.
Always have a cheerful smile.
Don't only give your care,
but give your heart as well.

If you are humble nothing will touch you,
neither praise nor disgrace,
because you know what you are.

Do not allow yourselves to be disheartened
by any failure as long as you have done your best.

There is only one God and He is God to all;
therefore it is important that everyone is seen as equal before God.
I've always said we should help a Hindu become a better Hindu,
a Muslim become a better Muslim,
a Catholic become a better Catholic.

If we really want to love
we must learn how to forgive.

If we pray, we will believe;
If we believe, we will love
If we love, we will serve.

We can do no great things;
only small things with great love.

Only in heaven will we see how much we owe to the poor
for helping us to love God better because of them.

- Mother Teresa

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

My weekend here...

Greetings from PNG. I apologise for not writing much about life here… It is more than I asked for. It’s amazing the way the world and God works. I am most intrigued each time I am jolted from my comfort zone. I am faced with a new challenge, a new learning, a new discovery of myself.

So, we will start with the obvious. Port Moresby is quite a pretty place. I live opposite a beach called Ela Beach and my hotel room has one queen bed as well as a single. I can sleep 3 people comfortably. I have learnt that if I sleep right in the middle of the queen bed, I am quite happy to be sleeping alone in this big room…Breakfast is either weet bix or the restaurant downstairs. Things here aren’t cheap but besides food and drinks, there is really nothing much to spend on.

Work here is in a big container. It never fails to remind me that you don’t need much to work with. What exactly am I doing here? I am trying to establish the foundations of the HR infrastructure. Things like having policies in place, setting up internal equity within jobs in the office here and I have come to learn, to be a smiley face to neutralize the negative vibes in this office…

Yes, this office is quite negative. Good leadership is not over rated. It is really important. I cant even begin to emphasize it. This is a big bad world. I have seen that aid can be manipulated. It is not always altruistic in aim. People aren’t nice. This is, at the end of the day, a fallen world filled with fallen people. I wished all countries had good governments. But what is good? At each stage, a country is faced with a different set of issue. In a developing country, you can have issues like high infant mortality, low employment, low gdp but what about a developed country? Divorces, low economic growth and aging population, people are dysfunctional too… Are they necessary better than those of a developing country? Each day I learn that Christ is the answer. I wish I can shout it out. I want my actions to reflect that. Love your neighbour as yourself… This means, don’t be jealous if one is better than self. Be thankful about somebody else’s joy. It’s amazing how many social ills is the result of jealously, mistrust and anger. This extends not only to individuals but departments, organizations and nation states.

Well. It is not all that bleak. I went for service with one of the local staff here for Easter Service. It blessed my heart so much I thank God for it. The message was about the reason for Easter. I am always in awe when I see very diverse people groups all loving God. I think that it defies self-perseverance. But without God we are nothing. Nothing. Money, fame, status cannot give us anything… and somehow people forget that when they become more affluent. This church was in the middle of a settlement. They aren’t rich. Christ is their all and that’s sweet. I love Jesus. J

What else is there to say. I have learnt that Life is a pageant. You just need to choose which pageant you want to take part in. Indecision is not a choice. In a way, I think the Christian faith teaches us to make rational decisions. I see beauty in commitment. The Christian faith shows us principles in decision making. Hmm, each day I learn to be more light hearted and to live more freely: to learn that everything is permissible (while not everything is beneficial). God has been good and is going to continue to be good. May His goodness continues to transcend the evilness from this world.

Time to start my work. Much of those left. God Bless!!!

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Bring back.. bring back... oh bring back my housie to me....

So depressed. Somebody is taking my home away as well as chucking me in some dingy corner… I shall get married to get away from it all. Any takers for a tall, eccentric, some say quite beautiful, silly, grumpy, sweet (Muahahaha) goody two shoes? I want to stay in a nice place that overlooks the sea, I don’t need 5 maids, just a nice home that is in a centralized, nice location. I like One tree hill, Opera Estate, Holland road, Pebble Bay, Sentosa Cove.. haha

Ok, perhaps it is not that bad, BUT imagine coming to the office at 8 in the morning and reading through your emails with a title “Home Sold”, and the next day another that says “no staircase”… Haha, I am a contradiction. If I were in PNG (which I am at) I will never complain about my living conditions.. why then do I feel so much about this? I don’t quite understand.

I am FINE… Not dying yet. PNG is treating me well. I have company, a new staff who is staying in the same hotel as me. It was nice to see him happy yesterday… yes, it is a HE… but really, doesn’t mean anything… He is an uncle la… Reminds me of the movie the holiday where Kate Winslet hung out with the old man.. hehe. I like that… Anyway, we spoke about fun, I want to go out and have some fun. Don’t want to be an eeyore, want to be a tigger….

Have had beers everyday for the last week. Jiamin says that will make me fat…maybe I will not eat so the net effect is the same? Yesterday was a super rough day, so many people issues here. I walked out of the office, sat in the hut outside and started praying for the staff here… I am only 23.. don’t take my youth away… I feel like Adam and Eve after they eat the apple, I have lost the innocence and I can’t have it again. This sounds quite drama.. sorry, need to rant... I need to start working on my Job Descriptions. Dying. Due at 1pm for the meeting and I have not finished it yet. And I am meeting with all the Directors in this office. Time to focus and not speak to anyone.

Sad. Stressed. Bring back oh bring back my housie to me…. Sorry for no complete sentences. Time to go back to work. Muack.