Wednesday, July 04, 2007

hello from sydney international airport

Hello from Sydney!

I have flown 5 hrs, transitted for 3 hours and am finally on my last leg on my way to get to Vanuatu.. Vanuatu is an island paradise, poorer cousin of fiji i believe and yes, there is a World Vision office there...

Airports make me mildy sad and lonely...so many different occasions i can remember of me crying in an airport... haah. strange woman i know...

Anyway, I had my first brush with death in PNG. Ok, not death, not that extreme.... but crime perhaps... On the 1st July, I decided that I wanted to go check out the sunrise in port moreby on the 1st day of the 2nd half of the year.. I sort of asked my colleague who is quite crazzy abt sunrises to go with me.. We decided to drive to go to a vantage point... Somehow. we found ourselves in a settlement (place where people stay) and there must be grumpy people there... They saw the car and signaled for us to stop... we thought they were trying to tell us that we were going against the flow of traffic and so started to turn around... As we drove, this people started chasing after us....Mike my colleague asked me to drive faster while he smiled at this people, trying to keep the mood positive.. Suddenly out of no where, I hear the glass shatter beside me and Mike going, just drive fast..... Hmmm, they threw a stone at us and broke the class.. there was also a mob of people running behind us.. we drove... and thankfully, did not kill anyone driving down... That was scary.. what happens if they caught up with us ? I hear that they will surely take the car and secondly, errr. if desperate enough, rape me.. haha. Thank God nothing like this happens...

Post trauma - I can understand why people are fearful of criminals. duh... but being the strange peirong, I wonder what the motivation is. fear and lack is such a big motivator... It is so easy to be angry with them.. I was mildly moody cos of that and wanted to go home really badly. trauma, stress and pms does that to me...

anyway my point is sometimes, there are bigger forces than us that makes us do stuff. Are we strong enough to stand up to such pressures and still preserve our integrity. What is integrity? Sometime last week, I was greatly challenged on why I do what I do... Hmmm, what constitutes right and wrong... Importance of Motivation. while our actions can always be misunderstood, miscontrued and manipulated... what is lasting is the reason for doing it.

May my motivations always be honest and true.

Lotsa love from Sydney from love sick peirong! haha. (ps, doesnt help that it is in the middle of winter and i am wearing summer clothes, totally slipped my mind i needed my jacket since i am transitting...)