Amazing what good vocalists can do. Amen to the prayer.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Basically the life cycle of an employee's time with a company. Did all today. Sometimes, i feel a little stress that i have the power to mess up people's lives. Give them little salary becos i don't like their face, fire them because they are prettier than me... :)
Gotta work late tonight. Have much to accomplish. perhaps i will leave by 630.. something to the name of work life balance. hmmm.....
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Why so downcast O my soul... put your hope in God.
I am not sure what we were fed when we were children, or where the thinking gene comes from. But from my sister's blog as well as mine. We think a lot. haha, i have been considered strange and weird for my thinking and I don't blame anyone. But how did I end up llike that I wonder? Yes, I understand that I was made like that. But it is a lot of energy to live like that. A lot easier to just be more ditzy and just be. but i am not like that. however hard i try...
Anyway, the reason of my latest angst, which I am feeling in full propensity due to it being a certain time of the month, is due to me feeling completely helpless in this fallen world. Yes, I know I am not supposed to be anything else, but, I think that my principles have again been questioned. Questioned by those in authority and being compelled to assist with the game plan. Not that I have anything against the game plan, perhaps, it is the idea of the game plan that is getting to me. Why do we need to play games? Why cant we just be honest and sincere and do it as it is.
I told my sister thats one reason why I like frog. He is a honest animal despite all the circumstances around him that encourages his bendness.. even when it is a little bend, he chooses not to bend. I like the uprightness in character. Maybe one day when he bends, I will be done of my infactuation.
Back to games. I know that I have "gifts" that enable me to get away with many things, but that is not the point. I will need to know what is my stand. I have no clue. I don't know to what extend do i do as I am told and it is not just me being sensitive and not understanding how the working world works.
Hmmm. I am confused. i dont understand what i can give up as a perfect ideal that is not attainable in this imperfect fallen world.
Sad. I think that I have been constantly exposed to the grey with no clear cut answers.
Please take from me my life, when I don't have the strength to give it to you.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
After every time of exaltation, we are brought down with a sudden rush into
things as they really are, where it is neither beautiful, poetic, nor thrilling.
The height of the mountaintop is measured by the dismal drudgery of the valley,
but it is in the valley that we have to live for the glory of God. We see His
glory on the mountain, but we never live for His glory there. It is in the place
of humiliation that we find our true worth to God— that is where our
faithfulness is revealed. Most of us can do things if we are always at some
heroic level of intensity, simply because of the natural selfishness of our own
hearts. But God wants us to be at the drab everyday level, where we live in the
valley according to our personal relationship with Him. Peter thought it would
be a wonderful thing for them to remain on the mountain, but Jesus Christ took
the disciples down from the mountain and into the valley, where the true meaning
of the vision was explained
"If you can do anything . . . ." It takes the
valley of humiliation to remove the skepticism from us. Look back at your own
experience and you will find that until you learned who Jesus really was, you
were a skillful skeptic about His power. When you were on the mountaintop you
could believe anything, but what about when you were faced with the facts of the
valley? You may be able to give a testimony regarding your sanctification, but
what about the thing that is a humiliation to you right now? The last time you
were on the mountain with God, you saw that all the power in heaven and on earth
belonged to Jesus— will you be skeptical now, simply because you are in the
valley of humiliation?
I like this. I dont like drugery. But i know it is beneficial. May everybody who is tired of everyday life be encouraged by this... I was.