Wednesday, March 24, 2010

The will to make it so...

Our vision for every child, life in all its fullness
Our prayer for every heart, the will to make it so

This is the vision statement for WV, place where I am working. For the longest time, I understood the first part of it, but never quite understand the 2nd part. "the will to make it so.. how and why do we need to pray for it?

I think this is perhaps one of the biggest lessons in real life. That knowing all the textbook knowledge, being good at what one does, etc, sometimes is not enough, there is a BIG political mountain to be pushed and it is very important to be able to influence this process.

Watching the passing of the health care bill has been fascinating. I know there are no real consequences to me but the amount of politics involved to get to this point has been staggering. The "stick", "carrot", emotional blackmail, logical arguments... for everyone person who wants this, at least another would be against it...

How hard it is to stick to a course of action. So much easier to pander and let it slide. When a supervisor shoots down an idea, or when the senior management asks for reworking the 20th time... It takes a lot of will to want to look at it again,to mke the necessary changes. It almost feels like hitting one's head on the wall...

I am reminded about Romans and how suffering produces perseverance, which produces character and finaly the will of God. I am also reminded about God not being slow in keeping his promises.

The will to make it so, while it is much easier to give up on life, give up on the difficult things around, i pray that i will continue to have the tenacity to make things happen..

(Blogging in the midst of studying for exams, packing my little room and working... all this while being sick!)

Monday, March 15, 2010

these three remain

And now these three remain, faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love...

Faith in the almighty - leading to having hope for the future - allowing me to love the people ard. Difficult to keep the flow of this going. to translate my faith to hope and finally to love.

The past weeks have seen me struggling to keep my hope alive. Hope in a good future, hope in the people around me, in the circumstances. With an eeyore personality, it is much easier to be despondent and to give up. much harder to cling to hope. to the good and to believe in a good future.

But that I must fight to do. Because without hope, I cannot love. Without hope, I have not really believed in my God. I do not have the faith in what he called me to do. I do not have the strength or the audacity to love: To put myself out on the line again or to be vulnerable; To accept the consequences of love and not become resentful.

I need your love to help my unbelief, so that I can love you with all my soul,strength, mind.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Loving Those Who Hate

This is in memory of the 5 Pakistani WV staff who were shot while in their line of duty. The excerpt below is taken from the president of WV US. The biggest donor to the WV partnership.

I still struggle to understand what kind of twisted worldview allows for the casual killing of so many innocent people for any reason. Ironically, on Tuesday, just as these attacks were occurring, I was making my final report for the President’s Council on Faith Based and Neighborhood Partnerships in Washington, D.C., to administration officials. In describing the NGO community I noted that “not insignificant is the reality that each year, our community of aid workers loses staff members to violence”—something very few other non-profits ever face. The next day, after the tragedy became public, President Barack Obama has also passed along his condolences to us through his senior staffers.

I returned to Seattle Wednesday and immediately walked into our weekly chapel, which had been quickly re-purposed as a prayer meeting for our staff in Pakistan and the families of our fallen coworkers. Words do not express the shock and horror of what happened. We live in perilous times, and yet all of us at World Vision believe that our work offers a powerful alternative to violence and hatred. Jesus’ simple command to “love our neighbors as ourselves,” continues to motivate us. In the end, love will win more battles than violence, and so we continue our work to love our neighbors—even those who choose to hate us.

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

The Lord of My emotions

My mother has been very interested in this deliverance and healing arean since we were rather young. She saw how that was very real, the spiritual realm and how decisions made in life had real life consequences. I remember going for seminars about these, she wanted us to know more and felt that the best way forward was for us to attend these seminars. In one of these events, we were introduced to the Lordship prayer. It basically affirmed God as the Lord of the spirit, mind and soul (all different parts that make up a person)

One of the things that was always difficult but yet I try very hard to mean what I say is asking God to be the Lord of my emotions. Yes, I am a very emotional young lady. Some people don't believe when I tell them I have a melancholic side even... The emotions is what I think is my Achilles heel, but even more. something that can be great because I can feel people's emotions. But also really bad when it gets to me. Some people think that it can be turned off, or that it is a point of weakness or an indulgence that should not be considered. but i think that if I dont face up to it, I cannot be the whole me. But will always be a part of me, since it is me.

Haha, ok, back to the point... Lord being the Lord of my emotions. Some observations:

1) He doesnt take away the sucky parts. He still allows me to feel intense pain, emos etc. However, I know that this too shall pass and that feeling sad doesnt mean I do not have a God who loves me.

2) He continues to make me emotional - I dont think I have become less emotional since asking him to be Lord. I think that I have a slightly better grip instead of dwelling in these emotions....

So yup. A process to make me a better person. Help me to remember that you are faithful even when I am not. Thank you for being my God.

Monday, March 01, 2010

a constant reminder of my motivation.... so help me Lord.

The deeds of men are only discerned by the root of charity. For many things may be done that have a good appearance, and yet proceed not from the root of charity. For thorns also have flowers: some actions truly seem rough, seem savage; howbeit they are done for discipline at the bidding of charity.

Once for all, then, a short precept is given thee: Love, and do what thou wilt: whether thou hold thy peace, through love hold thy peace; whether thou cry out, through love cry out; whether thou correct, through love correct; whether thou spare, through love do thou spare: let the root of love be within, of this root can nothing spring but what is good.”

(Homily VII, paragraph 8 St Augustine)