Wednesday, October 27, 2010

perhaps...

happiness and sadness are not the end products... its not something to pursue  or something to consider how to get out of...  they r by products and by obsessing, we loose the moment of happiness and dwell in the sadness. it doesnt make it anybetter.

I need to be more task oriented like my mother, and my frog... paint the walls of the corridor, throw out the junk and start life proper here. no procrastinating and emo-ing ard...

Monday, October 25, 2010

money...

hello from student peirong.

Sigh. i am trying to not be traumatized at my finanical state. Starting up requires all my money and that has not been fun to say the least. :(

i hope that things will become better and in the meantime, to trust and not fret... becos fretting only leads to evil. :(

Sunday, October 24, 2010

The difference between peirong n germany....

Hello from the train to meet a bestie. Currently feelin bummed as I missed my train n will henceforth b one hr late:(

I start my 4 week here in germs today n it has been a struggle. Haha I m recently told I see the disaster before the silver lining.... True but if it is my disposition, I can only accept n try to not let it rule me. Good luck...

Anyway struggle primarily becos we r very different in make up hahaha. Some obvious one for now

Germs are the epitome of order n I m sorry to say not... From readin intently the instructions when operating the microwave to the specific articles used to describe objects which permeates through the whole entire language. There is a way of doing things that one needs to follow else face dire consequences... Improvisation is not Something to be appreciated.

Timeliness. To say the least I m not one who does very well with flowing the clock to the dot and this has got me into too much trouble . Like today I didn't know that trams from my apartment which usually leaves every 10 mins leave twice on Sundays... :( this has caused me to be 1 hr late or to spend 59 sgd more to catch a faster train.... Sighhhhh

Haha the list continues with thoughts on directness vs indirectness, pushiness vs passive aggression. How do I stay me in the good beautiful that god created n not feel so culturally different. I need to change becos this age old machine of order will not change for me. To pick the desirable traits n to not those just to fit in....

I have now made q habit o smiling at ppl who r curious bat me. It's fun to see their reaction....
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Sunday, October 10, 2010

identity.

for a while now, i have been thinking about the idea of "identity" and its role to an individual. in fact, my dissertation revolves around the idea of identity and its role to the wider organization....

i know that the identity that will remain with me forever and ever is " a child of God". Everything else pales in comparison. During this time of transition, while not understanding the language, feeling abandoned by my work etc,... I want to remember that as a Child of God, I am blessed with others who dearly love me... I am blessed with the solid stone on which I stand... as so because of this. I will not need to fear...

Thank you for all the admin work that I had to do in the first week... To a better 2nd week in Germany. Cheers!