Saturday, January 29, 2011


the thing about faith, u need to remember how the faithful had been faithful, to have courage to believe again... Pls help my unbelief. To remind me that u r in control.


Hebrews 11

Faith in Action
 1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. 2 This is what the ancients were commended for.

 3 By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God’s command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible.
 4 By faith Abel brought God a better offering than Cain did. By faith he was commended as righteous, when God spoke well of his offerings. And by faith Abel still speaks, even though he is dead.
 5 By faith Enoch was taken from this life, so that he did not experience death: “He could not be found, because God had taken him away.”[a] For before he was taken, he was commended as one who pleased God. 6 And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
 7 By faith Noah, when warned about things not yet seen, in holy fear built an ark to save his family. By his faith he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness that is in keeping with faith.
 8 By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. 9 By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. 10 For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God. 11 And by faith even Sarah, who was past childbearing age, was enabled to bear children because she[b] considered him faithful who had made the promise. 12 And so from this one man, and he as good as dead, came descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as countless as the sand on the seashore.
 13 All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance, admitting that they were foreigners and strangers on earth. 14 People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15 If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16 Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.
 17 By faith Abraham, when God tested him, offered Isaac as a sacrifice. He who had embraced the promises was about to sacrifice his one and only son, 18 even though God had said to him, “It is through Isaac that your offspring will be reckoned.”[c] 19 Abraham reasoned that God could even raise the dead, and so in a manner of speaking he did receive Isaac back from death.
 20 By faith Isaac blessed Jacob and Esau in regard to their future.
 21 By faith Jacob, when he was dying, blessed each of Joseph’s sons, and worshiped as he leaned on the top of his staff.
 22 By faith Joseph, when his end was near, spoke about the exodus of the Israelites from Egypt and gave instructions concerning the burial of his bones.
 23 By faith Moses’ parents hid him for three months after he was born, because they saw he was no ordinary child, and they were not afraid of the king’s edict.
 24 By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh’s daughter. 25 He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the fleeting pleasures of sin. 26 He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward. 27 By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king’s anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible. 28 By faith he kept the Passover and the application of blood, so that the destroyer of the firstborn would not touch the firstborn of Israel.
 29 By faith the people passed through the Red Sea as on dry land; but when the Egyptians tried to do so, they were drowned.
 30 By faith the walls of Jericho fell, after the army had marched around them for seven days.
 31 By faith the prostitute Rahab, because she welcomed the spies, was not killed with those who were disobedient.[d]
 32 And what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson and Jephthah, about David and Samuel and the prophets, 33 who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, 34 quenched the fury of the flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies. 35 Women received back their dead, raised to life again. There were others who were tortured, refusing to be released so that they might gain an even better resurrection. 36 Some faced jeers and flogging, and even chains and imprisonment. 37 They were put to death by stoning;[e] they were sawed in two; they were killed by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated— 38 the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground.

 39 These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. 40 God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.

My first fren-dinner date

After class, met my German classmate for dinner. Was intriguing learning bout Iran n e Bahai faith:)

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Tuesday, January 25, 2011

First post on blog press

On top of my bed, to remind me life is precious... To treasure everyday n to just live love n laugh:)

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(not so) deep dark secrets and thoughts...

Hello from Germany. My sister once told me that if I do not update my blog/fb... it will be a matter of time that I will lose contact with all at home. How true.. but also, sometimes, thoughts are so convoluted, and not always pleasant, making me wonder if it is ok to share... anyway, here goes.. :)

I am looking for friends. People to care about and love here in Germany.(feels almost like a online dating site) Its a little hard here .. (to say the least). besides my frog and his family, I know that i need to make friends of my own to feel less foreign, less in my own world...

... I met a girl in the train when I first arrived who was very sweet and wanted to be friends, I offered my frog to send her home from the train station as she was in clutches.. After that, I never heard from her again...

... I have an interesting neighbour that I think I should keep some distance from..he thinks Asians are totally sweet... I have invited him for dinner with my frog once...

... I have my classmates from German class, I have invited them for lunch in 2 Saturdays ...

... I have been reading English Forums on meet ups in my city for English speaking people, and feel quite tempted to do that...

.... God and his people... church. That brings me to my 2nd point that needs your prayers and thoughts

Looking for a church here in Mannheim. On alternate weekends, I go to his place and we go to his church nearby.. However, when we are here in Mannheim, we are still looking for a church. The frog did not want to go to an American Military Church ( most of the English speaking people here works for the American military).. so we were looking for something that was not American Focused.. The website wrote something like International Church of Mannheim and so we went... It turned out to be a very African Church which was a very interesting experience. Africans must be the oppostie of Germans, it was a very vibrant and loud service and I think they screamed/shouted/clapped/danced for the whole week ahead. It was fun.

The next church we went was around the corner from here. A Baptist something church. I thought it was fine, (they used ppt which made it easier for me to translate and understand) However, the average age of the congregation was pulled down drastically by me. :) Frog thought that it would not be a good choice in the long term.

Last weekend, we went to one that I proposed. It had a very cool website. haha. It was quite interesting but might have the opposite problem as the Baptist church. The average age was potentially pulled up by the frog. oops... So now I solicit your prayers (those who pray) in me finding a home. Some place where it wont be too difficult to blend lives... where I can meet people to love and to be loved...

third thought. Who is your provider? I am always intrigued at how the sermon is put into practice immediately after teaching Almost as though a test on what was being thought. The sermon was on the line in the Lord's Prayer "Give us today our daily bread", the pastor suggested that we pray this because God is our provider, we are dependent on him etc. How easy to lose sight of this. To freak out and worry about something. To want to be me, apart from God. I think if one truly believes that God is a provider, it provides one with courage to do more... however, this belief is a constant process and struggle and easy to forget. I pray for increased focus to remember to "seek God and his Righteousness first"....

Final thought before I make Milo!.. My language skills leaves me much to be in want. :( I don't have the natural flair and still trying to distinguish pepper (pfeffer) and pastor (Pfarer).... I remember being in awe of my brother being able to speak dialects so easily when most i can do is just understand... not speak.. Anyway, need to be a happy student and not blocked. While not doing the best, little by little one step at a time... Blah.

Ok, good night world, God is good. Cannot lose sight of that.

Friday, January 14, 2011

a happy wallpaper for a happy year...

My current entertainment has me searching endless blogs looking at design inspirations for my little apartment. Andrea asked if this is an indication I will stay... i said not really, but rather this is me needing to fill my time with something instead of feeling lonely and emo etc.. Gives me something to do/think.

I remember the days when I would watch one home improvement show after the other and my little sis be super bored... when i went to spotlight too often that the boyfriend then conferred it his least favorite shop in the whole world :)

I need to be thankful for what I have now... Spent many late nights these weeks doing the first draft of what looked like 1/12 of my paper. An organization that starts out with a missionary intent is now doing something quite different. Is it worst of? Or maybe more "matured"... Interesting how things change with time...

Some other person in my life is getting married (and I have been stalking my married friends pictures on fb), all very interesting but very life changing... I am a little worried about this person in my life whose wedding now I need to try to attend. If so, I will be back home by the 26th March. I need to work like mad to have something to research by then!

I wonder what this year will look like. I have already been learning to set up nest. Its amazing how travelling and living alone for work is very diff from having one's own household. To think about the trash I need to clear, the room that will not clean itself. the things on the floor that will not be picked up by itself and the dishes that will need to be washed.. And also the non running away (to another hotel room) if it gets too eeky. haha. I think in general, this is good for my personal development but it is definitely steep... I am happy that for the most part, I am alone so I do not adhere to anybody's hygiene level :) ( I have already been called to be hibernating in my little pig sty.. but then again, Germans are known for their very clean sterile environment.. Help)

My hope for this year...  that I will not lose sight of the wonder of God. I am thinking of a theme word this you have one? At this point in time, I am thinking "BELIEVE"..I am also thinking that I should perhaps paint 1 letter per canvas and hang it up?

Ok, good night world. God Bless and I love.

Sunday, January 09, 2011


It was April 1975. Stan Mooneyham and I stood on the tarmac of the Phnom Penh airport, then under rocket attack from the Khmer Rouge. We had unloaded several tons of medicines and food to keep the WV staff supplied and equipped. John Key's sister, Dr. Penelope Key, director of our health programs in Kampuchea, had supervised taking on board 30 malnourished babies.
Stan urged our Assistant Director, Minh Thien Voan, to come with us. "No," he said. "I must stay with the ministry and with the church. Take my wife and children. I have decided to stay.” Stan and I both used many arguments in those fleeting minutes. But Voan was resolute.
What caused him to make that decision? A core value. Two weeks later Voan was dead, clubbed to death by Khmer Rouge soldiers on the forced march into the countryside. He was last seen handing out scriptures and sharing the gospel of Jesus Christ.

That was also a core value at work—both in the sharing and in the killing.

... Excerpt for work document. I thank God for the faithful that has gone before and ask for courage to be counted as one of his soldiers, in all that I do.