Monday, April 08, 2013

Saturday, April 06, 2013

An Article I wrote for devotionals for the church I am attending (based on Psalm 107)

Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story
I love Jesus and seek to honor him in the decisions I make. I trusted God in my move to Germany, where I would embark on post-graduate studies and at the same time evaluate a relationship and prayerfully contemplate the possibility of marriage.
 After what felt like confirmation, we started planning our wedding and in a span of a few months, I found myself moving from Germany to Singapore, and then back to Brussels, married. It was intense to say the least. Few months later, I found myself questioning the work that I have done thus far in Germany as staying in my current university was becoming less of an option. The changes and uncertainty felt enormous and overwhelming. Feelings of unworthiness and doubt filled my days, Brussels weather definitely did not help.

Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress.
Through this season, I prayed and meditated and sought to be still and remember that God is God. I came to a point where I knew that at the end of the day, I am a Child of His. And because I belong to Him, this is enough. With this knowledge, I forced myself to reach out of my dark bubble and to make contact. One of the first contacts I sought to make was with Serve the City as we lived very near Gare du Nord and came to find out that they helped out with the people there.  A few months later, I also began volunteering my time in the library in Leuven.
With time,  I found God given friends to love and to be loved by. I also enjoy going to VUB on regular Wednesdays, playing with the children and giving them a sense of worth. Recently, I also got accepted into the university in Leuven and will slowly try to integrate into that new environment.
Throughout this time of flux, God continued to show his faithfulness in very tangible ways as well. I was granted an extension to my part time contract for one more year. My boss was very understanding, a man of God who sought to look out for me in tangible and intangible ways.

Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for mankind
God is good and remains God despite my feelings and worries. I have learnt that being thankful is a way to channel my wandering thoughts from what-ifs to what-God-has-already -done. He continues to teach me to depend on him, despite what I think the worst possible outcomes may be, that he does make things beautiful in his time. I continue to learn to walk by faith not sight.